Just so you know ♥

Well Kevin, I hope this is the last time I write something about you. I do not know why, but sometime, I'd like you to read what I write about you, to knew what I feel for you, that as I write this, tears escape from me. I can not believe you're married. I can not believe, despite how happy I was for you, how bad I came to know that you're married. I can not believe that, like, despite everything, I still love you, and though I do not show it, I'm happy for you. I hope that, at least, you'll always keep making me happy with your music and I'll always listen to your songs and say "Listen, this is my Kevin's guitar." Now I realize that I'm satisfied with it. I'm glad to know you're there, that you're OK. I sincerely hope that she will never hurt you and and that she will always make you happy. And I still have hope that, sometime, you know how I feel about you. I know that makes no sense, and that even if you walk into this blog and read it, everything is in Spanish, and you will not understand anything. I know it doesn't make sense, because you are 22, and I'm 13. Now I will see how do I stop thinking of you. To stop naming you, to smile every time someone says your name or just says the name Kevin. I'll have to get used to. From what I saw, you two are very much in love, so I know you will be very happy together. Good luck, Kev. I hope to meet you someday. Even if it's at a concert and I'm watching from row 285. It makes me happy to know that you're okay.

Stop the Kevin Haters!

Kevin. It's a five letter name for a gentlemen. But if you go to a mere dictionary, it means something. From Roman it means 'humble', but to others the word means 'handsome'. But to most of us, he's Kevin. But when you stand in the crowd of a Jonas Brothers Concert, who is everyone screaming for? Joe and Nick. But what about the other one? Who plays his heart out, and breaks a sweat to bring that amazing guitar skill to the stage? Oh you're talking about Nick! No. Nick does play, but who does it for 2 hours straight only stopping for a intermission between the songs. From 2005 to now, there's been one guy who stands on stage, in the back, on the left. Oh you mean Garbo! No, not at all, not even Garbo himself can take his place. It's Kevin. Paul Kevin Jonas II, the hazel eyed brown curly haired boy, who is famous for his love for guitar and the band. Everyone sees him, but no one knows him. Going to city to city, who is your favorite? When you say "I support the Jonas Brothers", does that include the oldest? The 20 year old, hasn't had it easy. "Oh he's gay! Why do you like him? Joe is SO sexy! Nick is so hot!" What does that say to you? True fan right? Not at all. He has something so real. Nick is indeed a hero. But the ones who do love Kevin, have been known to have fallen for his charm, and irrestible looks. What was the last thing you have said about Kevin? He's SO hot? He's SO ugly! His chesthair needs to be shaved! His sideburns are really tacky! What does that make you think of that person? She has a favorite. Why bring him down? Joe isn't the only one who has fallen onstage. Kevin has too. Think about spinning, while playing guitar, and trying to master the spin in front of millions. Sure, he is the oldest, okay he's rarely sings loud in a song, his heart is pure gold. What makes him different? He's Paul Kevin Jonas II. When watching videos, do you laugh at Joe and Nick's jokes, and when Kevin speaks you ignore it? Can you tell a jb fan right now his favorite color is green? or he loves butterfingers? or is THE starbucks fanatic? Stop the hate. If you were teased because of your looks would you hate it? He's pushed and shoved in interviews, as the older brother, djs can tease. would you hate that? if you people THOUGHT you were the first to try drugs? the first to have sex? the first to lose your purity? Think about it. Step into Kevin's shoes for a minute. Waking up at 4 a.m to head to a brand new city on the tour. Walking out of the tour bus, with thousands and thousands of fans standing there. "I LOVE YOU JOE!" "I LOVE YOU NICK!" "OH MY GOD!" But Kevin just smiles, and waves. He's being ignored. Well maybe it won't be bad. He gets dressed in his dressing room. Hears thousands of screaming girls. Steps up on the stage, and smiles. Begins the introduction of a song. Then the lights hit them, and then hits the audience What does he see? Nick and Joe lover signs. How would you feel. He's does alot. He's dragged down, but what does he do? Quit being a Jonas brother? NO! He loves us, and when that Say now text comes in, and all you hear is him. Think about it, he's taking his time to say hello, and he loves us. He taught me what love is, and how romantic boys should be. He is beautiful to me. There's something inside of him, that shines through him, and when I see him, I can't help but love. He's amazing in my eyes. When I sit infront of him, in a crowd at a concert, I looked him in the eyes, and smiled. Because he is so beautiful to me.

Hoi.

Hoi no tengo mucho que decir. La verdad, al principio, hice este blog por las antis de Kevin, porque estaba enojadísima con esas personas. Despues, empecé a poner canciones que me hacian acordar a Kevin y después noticias sobre los Jonas. Después me empecé a descargar, como si él fuera a, algún día, leer todo esto. Todavía sigo con la esperanza tonta de que él lea todo esto. Pero es imposible, obviamente. Así que, hoi no tengo mucho que decir. A veces pienso en él. No lo hago mucho, para no ponerme mal. Pero que siempre estás, siempre está ahí. Así que lo único que tengo para decir hoi es: Kevin Jonas, Te Amo.

Sorry

Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights but lullabies
Helps make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
Building up the strength just to say
I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep.
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But your already on your way.
Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leaving your heart out in the rain
And I know your gonna walk away
And leave me with the price to pay
But before you go I wanted to say
Yeah!
That I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But you're already on your way.
Can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go, then please girl
Just leave me alone.
Cause I don't want to see you and me going our separate ways.
I'm begging you to stay
If it isn't too late
I'm sorry
For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep.
If only..
This time is the last time that I will ever beg you to stay.
But your already on your way.
But your already on your way...

Bueno Kevin, espero que esta sea la última vez que escriba algo así sobre vos. No sé por qué, pero alguna vez, me gustaría que leyeras lo que escribo sobre vos, que supieras lo que siento por vos, que mientras escribo esto, se me escapan las lágrimas. No puedo creer que estés casado. No puedo creer, a pesar de lo feliz que estaba por vos, lo mal que me cayó saber que te casabas. No puedo creer que, igual, a pesar de todo, te sigo amando, y aunque no lo demuestre, estoy feliz por vos. Espero, de todo corazón, que seas feliz, que nunca te separes de ella y que estén juntos para siempre. Espero que, por lo menos, sigas siempre haciéndome feliz con tu música, y que siempre que escuche una canción suya diga "Mirá, esa es la guitarra de mi Kevin". Ahora me doy cuenta, de que con eso me alcanza. Que me contento con saber que estás ahí, que estás bien. Espero de todo coprazón que ela nunca te lastime, y que sepa hacerte feliz. Y todavía tengo la esperanza de que, alguna vez, sepas lo que yo siento por vos. Yo se que no tiene sentido, que aunque vos entres a este blog y leas, todo está en español, y no vas a entender nada. Y sé que no tiene sentido, porque vos tenés 22, y yo tengo 13. Pero bueno, nada, eso quería decir nomás. Ahora voy a ver como hago para dejar de pensar en vos. Para dejar de nombrarte, de sonreir cada vez que alguien te nombra o simplemente dice el nombre Kevin. Voy a tener que acostumbrarme. Por lo que vi, los dos están muy enamorados, así que sé que van a ser muy felices juntos. Mucha suerte, Kev. Espero algñun día, encontrarme con vos. Aunque sea en un concierto y yo esté mirándote desde la fila 285. Me hace bien saber que vos estás bien.